when I see I’ve overwatered it again, I jab
the turkey baster into the rust-colored runoff
before the water spills over,
onto the hardwood floor.

in our mid-town apartment,
the harsh light sears the spiky leaves.

it reminds me of summer,
when you left me here on Beachwood Dr.
and I shot Demerol
my rust-colored blood backing up in the syringe,
the same pierce of yellow light,
the sharp spike breaking my skin.

I remember what you said about overkill,
how I could love a thing to death.

my jaundiced face mirrored
the ailing yellow of the dracaena’s tired leaves,
the green of it, peaked. off-color.
my sad visage the hue of drowning,
the flood of the Demerol too much like

the dracaena hides a stain
on the hardwood floor in the
shape of a man. A murky, splayed patch
between the closet and the bed.

since you disappeared, some nights
I lie down on that stain,
my body mimicking the way I’d lie
on top of you, arms and legs akimbo.
I imagine you, oozing out
onto the hardwood, a mess.

the landlord, under duress admitted
that a dead man had lain there
till long past rigor, seeping fluids
like an overwatered plant
till he and the floor had organically
merged into one.

Alexis Rhone Fancher
An earlier version published in Rattle, Tribute To L.A. Poets, June, 2016

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ALEXIS RHONE FANCHER is a compulsive writer of erotica, an irreverent photographer, and a lover of all things “bent.” She is the author of How I Lost My Virginity To Michael Cohen and other heart stab poems, (2014), State of Grace: The Joshua Elegies, (2015), Enter Here (2017) and Junkie Wife (2018), the story of her first, disastrous marriage. Alexis is published in Best American Poetry 2016, Verse Daily, Pirene’s Fountain, Rattle, Plume, Nashville Review, Cleaver, Slipstream, Diode, Hobart/Pulp, concis, decomP, ASKEW, Tinderbox, Vox Populi, Glass, The MacGuffin, Rust + Moth, Anomaly Lit Review, Wide Awake, Poets of Los Angeles and elsewhere. Her poems, short stories and essays have been published in over 40 anthologies. Her photos are published worldwide, including the covers of Nerve Cowboy, Heyday, Witness, Pithead Chapel, and The Chiron Review. Since 2013 Alexis has been nominated for 15 Pushcart Prizes, 1 Best Short Fiction Award, and 4 Best of the Net awards. Alexis is poetry editor of Cultural Weekly. She lives in on the cliffs of San Pedro, CA with her husband/artistic collaborator, James Fancher. They have a fantastic view. Alexis performs her work all over Southern California and (occasionally) beyond. Check out her website: www.alexisrhonefancher.com , for upcoming gigs and to be put on her mailing list.

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