Dear Wine Guys,
While I can honestly say I have few regrets about leaving New York City, in all sincerity the loss of you is one of them. German wine sellers don’t understand me. This is a culture centered around thin, white wines, perhaps dictated by the Berlin demographic. But as you well know, I am a red-blooded, robust American woman, complex and full-bodied with hints of sweetness largely overshadowed by my dry sense of humor. You seemed to sense all of that immediately and I felt a kinship with you that has never been equaled the world around. Oh Wine Guys, don’t at least one of you have a desire to learn German?
I so fondly remember the bygone days when I strolled in after work and with but a look, one of you accurately assessed my mood and began collecting bottles you knew without a doubt I would enjoy. So rarely were you mistaken and each visit promised something fresh and exciting or simply comforting when I returned home, ever a reminder of your careful attention to detail and knowledge of my innermost self.
It has been a trail of tears for me here in Berlin traversing from one store to the next, ever hoping for the connection I felt with you. I have tried every wine dealer in my district, daily venturing farther and farther afield, ever hoping for that certain something. Time and again I am disappointed. Each night I return home with wine described to my liking on the label and yet lacking in flavor, body and levels. I am a coloratura soprano, after all; I need as many notes in my wine as my music. Thus far, it is not to be.
Tonight was the worst of all. The storefront showed promise. Inside a wine tasting was in progress. The clientele seemed by all outward appearances to be educated, cultured, and true wine lovers. The wine selection was displayed beautifully and the patroness, ah, the patroness, she was like a beacon in a storm. We spoke of colors; she used words like Kraftig and Trocken, music to my ears. I felt a spark, something I haven’t felt in months, not since you. I was certain she could be what I had been searching for, the connection, the understanding, the chemistry. I followed her through the shop in a haze, nodding and smiling as she expounded on the large, round flavor contained in this bottle, yes only a little more than I wanted to pay but it would be well worth the expense. I admit, I may have been too easily swayed. Can you blame me, after such a drought?
I rushed home, bottle in hand and a smile playing at my mouth. This was certainly the beginning of a beautiful relationship. The corkscrew, the perfect wine glass, the pop as the cork came free, 10 minutes to breath although I was finding it difficult, the pour, the swish and finally the sniff. I knew immediately something was wrong. Where was the assault on my nose? Where was the flowery beginning, the tobacco, the raisin, the smoke, the oak? I swished again only hoping I had not been aggressive enough. Another sniff and the following sip with the bouquet, if you can call it that, still in my nose. I rolled it over the tongue front to back and nearly spit it back out, it tasting bitter with my disappointment rather than what it was, simple and boring, far too thin to be interesting and singing John Cage instead of the Rachmaninoff I needed. And with that, the earlier ember that burned only moments before, died.
And so dearest Wine Guys, it is with a heavy heart and a bland palate that I sit down to write you this futile letter. I feel a fool hanging on to what cannot be and wish so fervently that I might be writing in victory rather than defeat. It is always most difficult to be the one left holding a candle as others move forward and ever farther away. I wish you no ill, certainly. Our parting was void of malice, after all. And I hope desperately you will welcome me back into your loving embrace when next I am home. I can only hope that by that time I have found again what I lost not so very long ago and can appear in your doorway head held high, carrying a bottle you don’t recognize. A gift from a thin, bland, white woman you no longer recognize. Ah well, at least I’ll be thin!
All my love,