Ms. Pacman

By Nicola Fucigna

Poem

• too-perfect crumbs • adrenaline • the ghosts’
breath upon you • one • wrong turn • its certain
death • • • •  eat • eat • the edible maze • run •
for this • life • pear! • 2,000 points • • gluttony
• • so lucrative • the glam • of it • all • • lipstick
• beauty mark • mask • mascara • unbudging •
• trademark • • pink bow • • even • the unborn
selves • immaculate • • • you and your uneyed
circles • where • • • • have you been? • our love
• three • intermissions • • two • babies • long •
then nothing • but ghosts • pellets • a world • •
with a strange logic • predator now prey • blue
• white • octopine dexterity • treachery • a rumor
of certain •  “patterns” • • “code bugs” • a “kill
screen” • that might • finally • put an end • to •
this all • • rumors • • whispers of a • • • Golden
Age • • • before • X-box • Grand Theft Auto •
Wii • trust me • • I know • • no one cares • any
more • • • death • • • • I have • become • mere •
• tangible nostalgia • prized junk • deaths • • • •
• minimized • by quarters • • alcohol • subtle •
wrists • too-perfect crumbs • adrenaline • ghosts’
breath upon you • wrong turn • your costumed •
twin • tries • to cannibalize you • an apocalypse
• in miniature • • catastrophe of relationship • •
• existential • living • no purpose no • working
exit • • I live hand • and I don’t • even • have •
a hand • to mouth • same • • screen • • different
screen • pink • orange • screens • it makes me •
want • to scream • appear to dis • appear • head
fake • apple! • 100 points • this existence • • • •
intolerable • so why • play? • why • • so many •
lives? • why • does money • • • prolong the fast
monotony? • • she is • • a Sisyphus • • gliding •
through • 2-D space • • too-perfect • • too-small
• • too-many • boulders • strewn • everywhere •
• edible • she eats • • • • • • • keeps her figure • •
how does • she  do it? • the eyes • scuttle back •
• • • to the Panopticon • at the center • fashion •
• a body • an unending • desire • to chase • • • •
• after • the specter • of a heart • its • circlings •

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NICOLA FUCIGNA was born in the maternity ward where Ronald Reagan was recovering from his near-assassination by John Hinckley, Jr., who, as it were, was trying to get Jodie Foster’s attention. She’s not exactly sure what this means, but does not hesitate to tell this birth story when given the chance. Ever since her birth, she has been mobile: raised, yes, in Washington, DC, but often traveling to Telluride, CO, where she presently, fast-forward twenty-nine odd years, sells books. Her near future promises radical change as she travels to Tucson, AZ, to pursue an MFA in poetry. She is currently working on a book about the history of Telluride called Human Topography and will post links when it comes out because it will come out, damn it. She does not want this blurb to end on such a note of profanity so will end instead on her favorite concierge comment of all time, said in a motel strip in San Diego circa AD 2000, “You’re from Washington, DC…[insert dramatic pause]…the land of the Lotus-eaters.”

7 responses to “Ms. Pacman”

  1. Oh, Nicola. This poem just keeps getting better and better every time I read it. I’m so glad we were able to publish it on TNB. Welcome to the club, my dear. And have a wonderful road trip as well. Say hello to some New Orleans ghosts for me.

  2. Erika Rae says:

    Oh, this was fun. Ms. Pacman did always manage to keep her figure, didn’t she?

  3. Tiferet says:

    Dude. OMG, i can’t believe it. you’re going to poet skool. you’re gonna be a real live poetess. and you obviously already are.
    Love you lots.

  4. I got halfway through before my eyes crossed and I wished I was down at the pizza parlor working on some mad wakwakawakawaka skills.

  5. […] Fucigna‘s poem, “Ms. Pacman,” appeared in The Nervous Breakdown in April. Also in April, her poem, “Electricity,” […]

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