He posted in the writing gigs section of Craigslist.
Some people say they’re empowering; others say they’re oppressive. They’re high heels, and, like them or not, women keep wearing them. The benefits of walking tall are obvious–attractiveness to the opposite sex, added height and confidence. But at what price? If one were to look inside the mind (and shoe closet) of a shoe diva, what would one find? What does the siren call of fashion footwear sound like? And is the wearer still smiling when she removes her shoes at the end of the day?
I am interested in having a short story written about a professional woman who has a love-hate relationship with her collection of impossibly high, pointy-toed stilettos.
For a moment, I indulged the illusion that the posting entity might be a women’s fashion magazine or website. I released the moment and wrote a quick, yet thorough, e-mail that detailed my many qualifications for writing a PG-rated pervy shoe story. Writing gigs don’t last long on Craigslist and I’m unemployed. I spend much longer moments dreaming of groceries.
I had questions for “Paul.” “For you or publication? Erotica or literary fiction?” The unemployed are not choosy. I wanted to know what Paul was buying so I could sell it. Fast. For American cash money. The kind they take at Trader Joe’s.
He admired my powers of perception. He liked the ridiculous water bra workshop casualty I sent him as a sample. “I’m in discussions with several other writers but I must say you stand out.” Just as I would accept his money, I accepted his flattery. I’m a writer. I like praise nearly as much as I like Trader Joe’s tomato and basil hummus.
Paul was discerning. There is plenty of free foot fetish literature on the internet. I did my research. I sensed that he wanted more of a connection. That he didn’t take as much pleasure in reading the same stories as hordes of the similarly-stimulated.
He asked if we could chat online. He wanted to share the nuances of his custom order. I grudgingly threw in the extra time and learned the following: He is turned on by the thought of women’s feet hurting. He loves very high, pointy-toed stiletto pumps.
And Paul is really into bunions.
For those not learned in podiatry, a bunion is “an unnatural, bony hump that forms at the base of the big toe where it attaches to the foot. Often, the big toe deviates toward the other toes.” In layman’s terms, they’re painful foot deformities. Painful, smokin’ hot deformities to some, it seems.
I was all business. “Anything else? Calluses, blisters, bleeding, corns?”
No calluses, blisters or bleeding. A corn or two would be fine.
He specified that the afflicted, yet fashionable, main character should have little to no interaction with men. He reiterated that she should be an educated professional. Paul did not want a trashy heroine in hooker heels. He wanted me to write him a girlfriend. He didn’t need to say it.
I received a lesson in two types of shoeplay: dangling and dipping. Dangling occurs when a woman, often seated with legs crossed, allows her shoe to dangle from her toes, exposing her heels. A woman is dipping when she slips her foot in and out of her shoe, often when she’s been standing in uncomfortable shoes for a long time. Though Paul enjoys dangling, he prefers dipping. He kindly provided me with a YouTube link to ensure my comprehension. Though he was at work, he located the video link in a jiffy.
In addition, he instructed that “[r]ealism and authenticity with respect to the woman’s day are what give this admittedly formulaic story novelty for me.” He seemed innocuous, even sort of sweet. Then he asked the question.
“Do you happen to have bunions?”
“Damn,” I thought, “Please tell me he did not just ask that.” He was not sweet and innocuous. He was trying to score some free foot chat. The kind provided by professionals for $3.99 a minute. I shut him down and advised that matters involving my own feet were outside the realm of our transaction.
He explained that he pays some of the writers to provide photos of their feet as “author inscriptions”. In exchange for the promise of one picture of my bare feet, Paul tacked a cool ten onto the $50 he would deposit in my Paypal account immediately. He wanted to know more. Did I have bunions? (Lie number one: Yes. I have early stage bunions. Truth: I don’t even know what that means.) Did I wear pointy-toed shoes? (Lie number two: Yes. Truth: I am 5’9” and, though I like some heel on my shoes, five-inch stilettos hold little appeal.) What color polish will you use? (Lie number three: I don’t know yet. You’ll find out when I do. Truth: Is he freaking kidding me?)
I wrote the story. She’s an architect. She dips and dangles with the best of them. Her Manolos are $500 vises, twisting her feet into shapes no foot should know.
[She] is happy to dress conservatively from the ankles up, but is unyielding in her insistence on wearing the highest heels possible. Her feet, disarranged and misshapen without the stunning stilettos, are perfect when tucked inside the pointy, pretty, pain-making pumps she wears. They proclaim her womanhood and dare anyone to think otherwise.
It wasn’t terrible. I arranged my feet to look as ugly as possible, snapped and uploaded a picture and sent it and the story to Paul.
I didn’t hear back for two days. I had my money but where was my flattery?
“I’m sorry for not writing back sooner. My mom had surgery. She’s recovering nicely. I love the story and the picture.”
I admitted that I had been worried that the story was more literary than he wanted. “No. I love rich narrative. I would like for you to do another.” During our interactions, I took note that he was not a stupid person. I was genuinely pleased that he liked the story. Then he asked, “Didn’t you say you had corns? Which toes are they on? I can’t really tell from the picture.”
Ick. I knew there would be some hanky-panky going on with the story, but cognitive dissonance had downplayed the co-starring role my feet would play. Double ick. I did not respond to his e-mail. It didn’t seem necessary.
That was about a month ago. He e-mailed the other day to tell me he wants to buy another of my “incredible” stories after the holidays. The ick factor faded with the compliment, the promise of compensation and the idea of him saving up to buy stories about women with beautiful bunions. I will gladly write him another story. I’m a writer. It’s what I do.