My wedding date was set for June 16, 2001. My ex-husband, Jim, and I spent every spare minute over six months planning the day down to the last detail. We reserved a large, beautiful cabin with the sleeping capacity for 75 people at Silver Falls State Park. We ordered wine and beer and worked with a caterer to feed the 50 guests we’d invited to our wedding, and we bought enough extra food for the 20 people who would be staying in the cabin with us for the three-day wedding festival. We found the perfect minister in the classified section of The Willamette Week and hired a local Celtic band. We had our simple, country-peasant wedding clothes custom tailored. We invited friends and family from every corner of the country. We were ready to get married.

Guests started showing up four days before the wedding. Many of Jim’s friends from his youth in Chicago came into town. His mother and her husband, his father and his girlfriend, and all three of his sisters also came.

Unfortunately, and much to my unhappiness, nearly nobody from my pre-Portland past was able to make it due to time and money constraints. Unlike Jim, who came from an affluent, middle-class childhood where almost everybody he knew had grown up to be successful, most of my kin were destitute outlaws skulking in the margins of society. Despite the fact that my mother was severely depressed and making every effort to kill herself with alcohol, Jim and I agreed to include flying her to Portland in our budget. We also paid for my sister, Kim, and her two children to come for our party. It was a time for family and loved ones, so we consciously ignored the fact that having my mom out would potentially be disastrous.

My mom, sister, and nephews all showed up around the same time. They stayed in our house, but I barely had time to notice. Parties, get-togethers, packing for the cabin, packing for our honeymoon, and just generally accommodating all the people who had descended upon my world pulled me every which way. I was so busy that I had little time to spend with my mom or Kim.

The night before we left to set up camp at Silver Falls, Jim and I invited the wedding party out for a pre-wedding get-together at The Horse Brass Pub. I left my 8-year-old daughter, and Kim left her 18-month-old and 5-year-old sons with our mom so that she could go out with the rest of the wedding party. I’d noticed that my mom usually had a beer in her hand every time I’d seen her over the past couple of days, but I was certain that her good sense and love for her grandchildren would overcome her desire to drink while we were gone.

“Will you please not drink while we’re out?” I asked.

“Yes, Gloria,” my mom snapped, avoiding eye contact. “It’ll be fine. Just go.”

The night out at The Horse Brass was great fun. Like almost everything else that happened during the time leading up to my wedding day, I don’t remember a lot of that night. I remember having a good time, laughing a lot, and taking a lot of pictures. Interestingly, when I got the film from that night developed, I noticed my sister’s face. In the photos, everybody at the table has a look of celebratory intoxication, cheeks all tinted with alcohol-induced ruddiness – everybody, that is, except Kim. There she sits in a sea of joviality looking completely miserable. In hindsight, I think she was thinking about how her children were doing with mom. Luckily, I was too distracted to care.

When we got home, we found my mom passed out on the couch, snoring. Kim’s boys were in bed and my daughter was up waiting.

“Hey Sierra, how was your night with Granny?” I asked.

“Okay. She drank beer all night. And Dalton screamed for aunt Kim the whole time. Granny just walked around saying, ‘Oh! You’re fine; you’re fine. Mama will be back soon. Come here to Granny – come to Granny.’” Sierra did a hilarious imitation of my mom as she bent at the waist and walked around beckoning to an invisible child on the ground. When she said the “come to Granny” part, she puckered out her lips, made her voice husky, and separated the word granny into two long, drawn out syllables – graaa-neee. She sounded like a crazy lady talking to a lap dog.

“Oh. And she smoked in the house,” Sierra added with an impish look of satisfaction.

Around noon the next day, a caravan headed off to our camp forty miles south. As we arrived, many of Jim’s friends and family began showing up from their various inns around the area. We all worked together to unload the cars and U-Haul that were loaded with food, bedding, dishes, and lots and lots of alcohol. A friend of mine brewed me a special keg of stout just for my wedding – bringing the total amount of alcohol to three cases of wine, two kegs of beer, and one pony keg of Golden Rose, an extremely rich, high alcohol content beer brewed by Hair of the Dog.

The night was filled with food and laughter. People who had never met got to know one another. People who knew each other but hadn’t seen one another in a long time had a chance to catch up. My mom, who must have felt terribly out of place – toothless, wrinkled, poor – quietly took solace in the only place she knew to go. And there was plenty of solace to be had.

The next day, the day of the wedding, was another blur – catering vans coming and going, guests arriving, and arguments with the producers of the movie The Hunted for stopping our guests so that they could finish shooting a scene. At one point, Jim was missing. At another, Jim was found. My dress didn’t fit – it was too tight thanks to the five pounds I’d gained, the alterations, and the dry cleaning. People prepared the outdoor altar for the ceremony and oh my gosh, where was the preacher?

At nine o’clock in the morning, five hours before the ceremony, I asked, “Mom, will you please do me a favor?” Nervous, afraid to offend, afraid of a fight, afraid of a drunken scene later if I didn’t speak up, I continued, “Will you please, please, just wait to start drinking until after the ceremony? Then, I won’t say anything to you. You can drink as much as you want. Just please, mom, don’t be drunk during my wedding.”

Another defensive answer, eyes averted, was offered.

At ten o’clock, Tony, one of the groomsmen, tapped one of the kegs, starting the celebrations early. Other people followed suit.

By ten thirty, my mom had a drink in her hand.

Because we were getting married in a field and my dress had a short train, somebody decided that I should safety pin the train to the back of my dress. No sense in having wedding photos that show an acre of foliage caught up in the hem of my dress, she reasoned. My mom, feeling left out, was given the responsibility of removing the safety pin and fanning out my train before the ceremony started.

The life-changing moment where I would finally fulfill the destiny I felt the very first second I laid my eyes on Jim finally came. Everybody gathered in the field. The wedding party made a semi-circle of held hands around Jim, Sierra, and me as we lit the three-wick unity candle. The sun shone and a light breeze played among the field of gently swaying wild flowers. The preacher opened his book and began to read.

Somewhere in the middle of the ceremony, as vows were being exchanged and I was struggling with the hard, wonderful lump that had formed in my throat, my mom suddenly realized that she had forgotten to take the safety pin out of the back of my dress. This, of course, was the furthest thing from my mind. But my mom – my poor, misdirected mom – decided she had to fulfill her obligation to fan out my train.

I didn’t even see her coming. She approached me from behind as Jim and I exchanged our vows. As the preacher stood before us reciting lines he was asking us to repeat after him, I felt someone tugging at the base of my zipper. Caught by surprise, I started brushing the hand away. I turned, saw it was my mother and hissed, “Mom, what the hell are you doing? Go away.”

But she wouldn’t listen. She was a woman with a mission. As she struggled with the safety pin, I tried to pull away. The safety pin, which had been inserted into the teeth of my zipper, was removed. Because I was pulling away when the pin came out, the zipper split – all the way up. My dress started falling off; my underwear was exposed; my breasts came pouring out.

Luckily, my sister-in-law, Phyllis, rushed over, grabbed the safety pin from my mom, who was bent over trying to fan out my train, and found a way to hold my dress together. I turned, stunned, back toward the preacher and Jim and I finished our wedding ceremony as my mom quietly slipped into the background, her duty fulfilled.

Three weeks later, I discovered the funniest, most absurd part of it all. I’d placed a disposable camera onto each of the twenty tables inside the cabin and had encouraged everyone to grab one as we headed out for the ceremony. Throughout the first half, there was an occasional flash of a camera here and there. But when my drunk mother made her fateful move, cameras started clicking like I was surrounded by the paparazzi. And so I stood, in the middle of Walgreens, three weeks later – after the wedding, after the guests had gone home, after the honeymoon – and shuffled through fifty pictures of the whole event, frame-by-frame, scene by horrible scene.

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GLORIA HARRISON is a writer whose work has been featured on The Nervous Breakdown, Fictionaut, and This American Life. Gloria was the lead editor for The Portland Red Guide: Sites & Stories of Our Radical Past by Michael Munk, which was published through Ooligan Press in 2007. She was also a contributing editor to Pete Anthony's book, Immaculate, for which she received a high five and a ten dollar gift card to Stumptown Coffee. Gloria graduated from Portland State University with her B.A. in English in 2006 and now focuses on her own writing. She had a work of flash fiction published in The Bear Deluxe Magazine (No. 26). You can follow her on Twitter here.

Gloria lives in Portland, Oregon with her school-age twin boys. She is currently working on both a memoir and her first novel. You can contact Gloria via her Facebook page.

36 responses to “A Nice Day To Start Again”

  1. Art Edwards says:

    Yes! Well, that’s quite a wedding day story. My favorite moment:

    “Throughout the first half, there was an occasional flash of a camera here and there. But when my drunk mother made her fateful move, cameras started clicking like I was surrounded by the paparazzi.”

    Nothing like someone losing their shit to bring the cameras out.

    Thanks for the peek!


    • Gloria says:

      And without all of those disposable cameras, I wouldn’t have been able to make this awesome collage!

      Thanks for peeking, Art.

  2. Zara Potts says:

    Oh Gloria! Your face in that picture!
    I read the last paragraphs covering my eyes, HOPING the inevitable wouldn’t happen.
    Great yarn, my love.

  3. Ashley (N.O. Lady) says:

    G, I love hearing stories from your past and this one is no exception. I wish I could have been there! No doubt I would have been one of the main ones snapping as many pics as I could.

    On a separate note: I miss you! Life has taken a few crazy turns but I’m hoping to catch up with you soon. Love you!!

  4. I’m with Zara about the forbidding final paragraphs.

    Since it’s now something we can all share, laugh and cry about, any idea if you might be willing to pull that off for our show on Monday? The kids these days, they like flesh with their literature. So I’ve heard.

    • Gloria says:

      I won’t be reading on Monday. I’ll be micromanaging the bar staff. However, this would be a fun one to read at a future event.

      See you Monday!

  5. Ha! I read the last five paragraphs with my hand over my mouth in horror, only to completely lose it laughing when I clicked on the pictures. You totally win best wedding day mishap.

    This one would be great for a reading if you could blow up the pictures to a large size, to be uncovered at the end. So funny. (:

    • Gloria says:

      Oh, man. There are so many pictures of these ten minutes, Tawni. I could do a whole slide show. And I win something? What do I win? Can it be a do over?

  6. Don Mitchell says:

    This totally made my day, much of which I spent on a ladder, scraping paint, muttering “why didn’t I do this the right way in the first place?”

    So when I read it . . . hey, your Mom tried to do it the right way. Just at the wrong time. And ineptly.

    I confess I was expecting some flesh, though. Honest.

    • Gloria says:

      …your Mom tried to do it the right way. Just at the wrong time. And ineptly. That describes so many things, Don.

      And – did you do it right the second time?

      • Don Mitchell says:

        Time will tell. This time I’ve taken off the 100 year old yellow paint — down to bare wood. Whoops, there’s that bare thing again.

  7. Richard Cox says:

    What a terribly great story of terror. I didn’t expect there to be pictures. Sometimes you assume stories told about the past like this will be embellished, but there is evidence right there in Technicolor! Ha.

    Sorry it happened, but if there weren’t mishaps at weddings they would be boring affairs indeed.

  8. Great story, Gloria. Like everyone, I was reading the last few paragraphs saying, “Oh my god… oh my god…” Amy and I got married just the two of us, but we had a party later with lots of people. I was wearing a kilt and getting drunk, so I dreaded any trip or wardrobe malfunction. Not usually a thing that guys have to worry about…

    • Gloria says:

      Weird. That’s exactly what I was saying as it was happening!

      While I’m glad your reception yielded no wardrobe malfunctions, those would be some fun photos to see. 🙂

  9. Oh the horror, the horror! But so funny! Yes, this beats any wedding mishap I’ve heard of. You win! Those photos are priceless.

  10. Joe Daly says:

    Gloria, this was a rubbernecker of a story. The perfect storm of a wedding, a wardrobe malfunction, and alcohol. What could go wrong, right?

    The story itself is a fun read, but the pic at the end takes the cake (and eats it, too). I love when authors include photos from the events in their articles.

    Well done!

    • Gloria says:

      “a rubbernecker of a story” is such a great description – like a car wreck on the side of the road. Apropos.

      Thanks for the read and the comment, Joe Daly!

  11. James D. Irwin says:

    I think you’ve told me this story before, and I can still barely believe it… things like this are only supposed to happen in sitcoms…

    It is a very funny story, but it is a terrible shame that what looked like a lovely wedding was ruined by a horrible and unfortunate sideshow. But like you said earlier, at least you got to use a Billy Idol lyric as a title…

    • Gloria says:

      Maybe it would’ve been funnier at the time if it’d been accompanied by a laugh track? It really is funny now. In a horrifying kind of way. 🙂

  12. Quenby Moone says:

    Ah, good ol’ Ma, always good for a laugh!

    Holy crap, G. That’s a helluva story! Ma didn’t have her thinkin’ cap on that day, did she? Bless her. Did she ever understand the epic moment? Or was it washed away in a haze of pickled hops?

    • Gloria says:

      I guess it’s only fair to point out that Ma got sober not long after this. Maybe within two years. She’s been completely sober for at least seven years now anyway. She hates this story, but knows I’ve written about it. We’ve gotten closer over these last years; she calls every Sunday around 4:00. Bless her, indeed.

  13. Gregory Messina says:

    Hi Gloria,

    This is like something out of a movie, except nobody could make such a thing up. And you have the pics to prove it! Great story.


  14. Jessica Blau says:

    Such a great story–sad and hilarious! I love Sierra. Can you attach an audio of that Grandma imitation?

    • Gloria says:

      Heh. She’s nineteen now, but I’ll see if I can get her to reenact the reenactment and I’ll send you the audio.

      Thanks for reading, Jessica. 🙂

  15. Meg Worden says:

    Oh Gloria.
    What a tale.
    Love it, this pics, that wonderfully horrified expression on your face as your boobs appeared to make their own vows and those pesky paparazzi.

    You are a soldier. Kudos, brilliant friend.

  16. Matt says:

    Ack, what a horror show! Truly a cringe-worthy event here.

    I was the ring-bearer at my aunt & uncle’s wedding when I was five. Little white suit, little white pillow with the rings on it. So of course, I get a bloody nose right in the middle of the ceremony.

    But this beats that, hands-down.

  17. Leslie Jamison says:

    So much sadness and hilarity here, all intertwined. Thanks for writing and sharing this.

  18. Nat Missildine says:

    I cringed and laughed through this piece, Gloria, but it’s probably in hearing that you’ve managed to make the laughs come out on top that makes it such a good read. The courage to be funny.

  19. HA! Now THAT is a Kodak moment if I ever saw one! So glad you can find humor in such a horrifying moment.

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