I Left What Little Warmth I Had on My Front Step on a Chilly November Night
By Meghan HuntJanuary 09, 2008
It feels like you appeared overnight
And before I knew what had happened
I’d let you in.
I can’t explain it, except that you’re like that.
You’re hard to push away…
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You became this thing on a pedestal
And I tried so hard to achieve,
To reach for the goal that was presented in you.
Sometimes, what we want most is best viewed from afar.
Sometimes, it breaks your heart when you finally have it.
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The distance was as wide as the ocean
And no amount of convincing you otherwise
Would have changed your mind.
You’re stubborn like that.
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I believe that you believe what you said
And maybe it’s harsh to think it was all
Just a well kept, well intentioned, well dressed lie,
But being cold and distant makes the memories fade faster…
And you’re beginning to fade away…slowly…like winter
One icicle at a time.
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Someday when I am older and wiser
I will be able to think of you without the sharp,
Twisting ache in my chest.
But for now, I can’t be the me you used to know
I need to learn how to be a different me
One who doesn’t miss you so much…
Because I’m stubborn like that.
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